The truth is that I no longer believe in an enlightened state where emotions are seen through like nothing but energies, rather than felt. I believe in being a normal human being that sometimes has everything under control, but most of the time is 50% mess, 25% “I got this” and 25% “it could be worse”. I’m a yoga teacher who teaches and practices with perfectly imperfect people. We grow together, and that growth is never linear. It’s messy and confusing and beautiful.
It’s been a year of changes and challenges for so many of us, and while I’ve been trying to find my footing in a life that has felt quite earthquake prone most of the time, I’ve noticed my tendency to harden. Being continuously pushed way beyond my limit and comfort zone and fighting back to stay standing has taught me to not only say “I got this”, but also to add “So I don’t need you”. Which is a lie.